LIfe.

Safe to say its been a rough week or so. 

My relationship came crashing down around me, family life is always rocky, I didn't get a job I REALLY wanted and I've just felt a bit rubbish about everything. Im sure somebody else has this sort of week too where nothing seems to be going right.  

Too make matters worse my 2 best friends are at uni at opposite ends of the country, so texting and snapchatting photos of my  panda eyes had to suffice in showing how upset I was/am.

I had work this morning so up I got at 5:20am and proceeded to dress up as a cat because its halloween and then left for work at 6:15am. 

I did all my make up myself using makeup not face paint and everyone loved it. The customers were smiling, I was the talk of my work place and everyone was in such a better mood purely for seeing me as a cat, a rather cute cat if i do say so myself. And I have never EVER received so many compliments in such a short space of time. 

I really love making people happy, putting a smile on someones face makes me so happy, and thats when I realised that being me is okay because the Laura who loves dressing up and having fun is the girl that makes people smile. 

I don't know how or why but this got me thinking about my future. I have spent the last year if not longer just wanting a boyfriend. And its okay to admit that because everyone just wants to be liked/loved. and yes I probably do care a little too much but since when has caring being a bad thing?I have boyfriends on and off but i have never been 100% happy but I believed that I didn't deserve happiness. And they always say 'when you stop looking, you'll find love' although I don't believe this to necessarily be 100% true I think its important to keep that thought in the back off your mind. What I'm taking from that quote is do not stop living your life because of a boy. 

So as of November 1st I am going to put my all in to my future and do the things I want to do. Blogging being one of them. I have also 100% committed to veganism, decided to open and easy store to sell my art (that reminds me I must set that up) along with many other goals.

16 to be exact. 16 goals for 2016, all specific enough to be achieved with enough ambition with out it being unreachable.

Maybe in my next post I will tell you all of the goals to keep me accountable. and I can update on how they are progressing. 

I will let you know once my easy shop is up and running if anyone is interested.

Anyway sending love your way,

Laura x